This is it. We are just a few short hours away from for us being able to obtain our badges. And a few more hours after that from being able to get into the exhibit hall and the official start of the madness.

This is always sort of a bittersweet time for me because I always can't wait for SDCC to start, but wants it starts I never want it to end. And once it ends, then the slight depression sets in from missing the anticipation and the joy of being there. And as this may be my last year attending because the ticket prices have gone from slightly ridiculous to truly outrageous! But, we shall see. I don't know if I actually have it in me after 18 years to just stop going.

More pics and info to come as the show starts.......

Four days until I leave for Cali. My home that I miss on a daily basis and that I cry for at least once a week b/c of my homesickness.

Thirteen days until San Diego Comic Con!!! Finally I may have something interesting to blog about.

I am a Sagittarius, so I am already notoriously flighty and unfocused. But, lately it has been really bad. When my boyfriend said he had to go away for 3 weeks for work I was kind of excited because, while I would miss him ,it would give me time to work on some of the things that have been on the back-burner for me.

Best laid plans......

Here we are a week and a half into his trip and none of the things I wanted to get done are getting done. Of course, in my defense i have been battling the cold that won't quit! But, not only am I not getting things done, but I am so unfocused that my pool game is suffering right now ( I am 0-5 for the season), my plans to get on a specific exercise program is suffering (mainly b/c of the cold), I can't seem to get out of bed at a decent hour so I can get things done before I have to sign on for work. The list could go on and on, but why bore you with the details.

I can't help feeling that there is something else going on. I am relatively happy in my life and I am happy in my relationship, but part of me thinks that I am a bit dissatisfied with some of the choices I have made and paths I have taken and I keep feeling that my subconscious might be edging me to do something about it. I am not sure what yet. Haven't quite gotten that figured out, but I am trying. I am thinking maybe taking up some meditation might help me...not to mention it might help me find some of that focus I that has been alluding me.

At some point I may actually reach some of these goals.

1. Write the short story that has been stewing in my head for months now.

2. Figure out which companion to the Doctor I want to be since the boyfriend wants to be the 10th Doctor. Which really means I should pick from Rose, Martha or Donna, but I really want to be Amy Pond so i can run around in a red wig saying "Oye!"

3. Continue to pay off my debt. Slowly but surely folks.

4. Get my website designed already! I have been talking about this for ages and I have designs in my head, but I have to sit down and actually do the work.

5. Start writing that novel that I keep filling my idea journal with ideas for. I wish I wasn't so lazy!

*Sigh*

We had to get up at 3am EST time to get here. And spend all day on a plane in which one leg of the flight I was right by a screaming baby and an annoying child who kept kicking the back of my chair.. Then had to spend an hour in line getting our badges at the Town & Country since we didn't get the preview night badges, which actually wasn't too bad. It was trying to get out of the parking lot after we got our badges that was the annoying part. Then we headed down to Downtown since this year we said screw it, we are staying downtown. This of course means we are right down the street from the San Diego Convention Center!!!! Color me happy. This has been my dream for awhile. We even have a kitchen in our room. So totally worth it!!!!

On to day one........

So there is a mid-to-slightly high probability that within the next year I may be moving to Holland. This is both an exciting and extremely scary prospect to me seeing as my traveling experience out of the country is limited to pretty much Mexico. And I have to say that Holland has to be a more exciting move than Ohio! But, I guess I will just have to wait and see if we actually go.

It certainly would make my livejournal far more interesting!

I don't expect anybody to really read this or have a response, which is half the reason I think i am posting this here.....

How do you deal with being something you always knew you were, but you can't control it and it is spilling into your "normal" life? And there are really only a handful of people you can go to to explain it to that might understand. I don't know what to do. I am a at a loss. :(

Here is what I am looking forward to in the New Year!

I will not be unhappy to say good-bye to 2009. It hasn't been a particularly horrible year, just not all that great. Let's see....

-I was laid off early in the year and didn't find a job until December. Actually, the old job hired me back as a telecommuter. So in the end it turned out okay. Not my dream job, but could be worse.

-I moved to Ohio. It is pretty here, but not for me. At the end of the day I am a city girl. I never thought I would miss Cali as much as I do. We could have moved to Holland, but we thought that move might be a tad bit more traumatic, so for the next couple years we will be in Ohio. And then, I don't care who I have to kill, we are getting the hell out.

-My car was hit by a semi-truck with me in it. Luckily I was okay, the car...not so much. But, I got a good payout and finally have a nice grown-up car with heated seats and extras i have never been able to afford before.

Other than that it was a pretty mellow year. I reconnected with my dad's side of the family, was able to meet my niece, got a new car, rent a house for only $910.

I also started writing more, which is my huge goal for 2010. Write, write, write. I have started blog posting more to my blogs as well as my friends blog. Plus, I would like to bang out a couple of stories by the end of the year.

Oh and I want to lose 30 pounds. My goal is to by the end of the year to have my old body back, which I think is a pretty realistic goal since I do have the whole year to accomplish this.

Two goals is enough I think. There are a lot of things I will be doing and learning this year, but I figure if I start slow it will be harder to fail!

Happy Almost New Year Everyone!!!

I have survived Day 1. We got in to Ohio about 1pm yesterday. I have no furniture, no tv (which may or may not be a good thing), my car is on its way but won't be here until next Wednesday and my boyfriend leaves on Saturday for Holland for a week. I am not sure if all of this is good or bad. By nature I am an explorer and would like to go out and do just that but as I have no car that is out of the question since today and tomorrow's forcast call for thunderstorms, so going out on foot would be a bad idea.

On the upside I have found both a gaming store and a comic book store within walking distance of my house. And I have two weeks of quiet to both catch up on my reading, writing and whatever the hell else I want to do. I am really going to focus on my writing and my phobia about it. Today seems to be good. I am posting a blog here and will soon post some things to my friend's geek site. I also have some ideas for some short stories that I can work on. This could be a productive week for me if I so desire. Plus, I have started reading Living Dead in Dallas by Charlaine Harris so I can compare the differences between it and Season 2 of True Blood which premieres soon. I am also reading Pride and Prejudice and Zombies b/c Pride and Prejudice happens to be one of my favorite stories and I love to see how people reimagine the tale.